Where once tidal waves lived

Calm waters slowly lap the shore

I wanted to destroy cities

To ensure my own destruction

I wanted to drown the whole world

So I couldn’t hear my own thoughts

But the cities held strong against me

My energy began to wane with the moon

And my waves absorbed the heat of the sun

And the screams in my head

Started to sound more like laughter

And fear began to give way to understanding

Until I felt a part of the world again

Until purpose smoothed me into glass

And I could be the gentle lap

The cities came to visit

To calm their own tidal waves

9 thoughts on “TIDAL WAVES

  1. One of my favorite Zen stories comes to mind:

    Great Waves

    In the early days of the Meiji era there lived a well-known wrestler called O-nami, Great Waves.

    O-nami was immensely strong and knew the art of wrestling. In his private bouts he defeated even his teacher, but in public he was so bashful that his own pupils threw him.

    O- nami felt he should go to a Zen master for help. Hakuju, a wandering teacher, was stopping in a little temple nearby, so O-nami went to see him and told him of his trouble.

    ‘Great Waves is your name,’ the teacher advised,’ so stay in this temple tonight. Imagine that you are those billows. You are no longer a wrestler who is afraid. You are those huge waves sweeping everything before them, swallowing all in their path. Do this and you will be the greatest wrestler in the land.’

    The teacher retired. O-nami sat in meditation trying to imagine himself as waves. He thought of many different things. Then gradually he turned more and more to the feelings of the waves. As the night advanced the waves became larger and larger. They swept away the flowers in their vases. Even the Buddha in the shrine was inundated. Before dawn the temple
    was nothing but the ebb and flow of an immense sea.

    In the morning the teacher found O-nami meditating, a faint smile on his face. He patted the wrestlers shoulder. ‘Now nothing can disturb you.’ he said. ‘You are the waves. You will sweep everything before you.’

    The same day O-nami entered the wrestling contests and won. After that, no one in Japan was able to defeat him

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  2. That city acts, as a, counter to the storm you’re, experiencing, it acts as, a, comparison basis, to remind you, to, keep calm, and, sometimes, it works, sometimes, it doesn’t, when it doesn’t, you just, let it all, loose, shouldn’t hold it in, as it’s not, good for you to, but, do make sure, that you get the city evacuated first, before, your, tsunami crash down, otherwise, there will be, casualties…

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    • I love the ocean but live in Oklahoma. No ocean = 🙁 the poem is about learning to control my emotions. Learning to ground. Severe anxiety lead to 6 months of no sleep and that led to a suicidal depression. During the final month before diagnosis I was the tidal wave. After medication ,good sleep, and a few years of therapy I started my journey toward calm waters. ❤️

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