ISOLATION

When I experienced bad bouts of anxiety and depression I would isolate.  I still do.  Avoid socializing.  Avoid commitment.  Avoid stimulation.  I would escape into my own head and look for comfort there.  But I would never find it.

When someone with depression reaches out to talk and they are scolded or told to just be happy they will retreat.  They will isolate.  And if they don’t learn to manage that isolation it will swallow them whole.

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Please don’t let go
Don’t let me fade away
I’m hanging on here
Best I can, but…
I feel like my grip
Might just give up
And you say
Why don’t you just
Slow up and grow up
You’re making me
Want to throw up
And I regress and digress
Put myself in timeout
Give my brain a recess
I can’t listen right now
I can’t listen right now
I can’t listen right now
Leave your name
And number after the…
I can’t listen right now
And you leave a message
Hey there buddy
How have you been?
I miss your face and
Hanging at your place
Wait… what’s your name?
Has it been that long?
Oh dude I’m sorry
I said those things to you
I didn’t realize the pain
You were going through
BEEEP
I can’t listen right now

7 thoughts on “ISOLATION

  1. Yup. Been there. People just don’t get it. I wanted to throttle my doc once when I was complaining about being beyond exhausted all the time, and she told me to go for walks. It took everything I had to walk to the end of our long driveway to get our mail.

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  2. It is one thing to isolate, and sometimes, even needed for rest, and quite another to be isolated, turned away, not heard. That is the pain that wants to give up, stop reaching out, stop swimming and drown.

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