I trashed more posts this month than ever. The older I get the more meaningless I feel words are. Mine specifically.
Everything feels noisy. My skin. The sky. Your hair.
The weight of failure is noisy. I keep failing. It keeps screaming. But the weight isn’t as heavy as I thought it would be. Maybe I’m stronger than I used to be.
I had a blogging friend stop talking to me after decades because of noisy words. I hurt his feelings or something. I’m not sure. Unresolved but still noisy.
I have other friends I can’t find words for. Time swallows more and more words. The silence has become noisy.
I started a website that hasn’t seen a sale. All I can do is walk away for a bit. It’ll be okay. I haven’t failed yet I just need some distance from that particular noise.
I got swallowed up over Thanksgiving break making more things that probably won’t sell. It made life a bit more quiet for a bit. Just the process of working with my hands. Of creating. Of speaking without words.
I want to be with my boyfriend but distance is harder to dissolve than we had hoped. Only time will allow the distance to melt away. In the meantime the distance is noisy.
I’m life tired. With every word I choose not to speak or write I’m sinking further into my weariness. I’m convinced there is a magic behind thoughtful words and I just don’t have any magic left in me.
It’s just too noisy.
HASTYWORDS 
Hello Hasty, I hear you.
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Hasty, the website is beautiful and your creations are too. It’ll take some time for the right people to find it (We will try to send them as we can.) It is one of several friends’ stores that could, if I had any musical talent, get me singing “If I Were A Rich Man”.
And the noise, yes, I think it hit me too. I had planned to do something on every one of Christine’s creative prompts this month and only managed one so far. Maybe there’s too much static in this noisy world.
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So much static but also so much heartache out there and outrage and it’s hard to navigate in any real and meaningful way. And thank you for viewing my website. I realized I never advertised the prices included shipping lol. So the prices seem high. Something I will work on after the holidays. It’ll take time and we shall see where the future goes. I appreciate as always your support and friendship ❤️
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Hmmm – People do like to know that part about the shipping. 🙂
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Apparently it’s only for my stuff and not the print on demand stuff. So I’ll figure that out. So complicated lol
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I know, even thinking about setting up a site to sell my book on line makes my head hurt.
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Which I need to buy still ASAP
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Thanks
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I know what you mean, but do remember that I, and probably others , value your posts and words. I’m sure your creations are great, I just don’t know where to go to have a look-see 🙂 I create for the fun of creating, it’s time never wasted. Please let us know where your website is:) in the meantime, please look after you!
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Gosh thank you. I needed that. I will definitely advertise soon once I figure it out but in the meantime I’d love for you to tell me what I could do better before I do. It’s at HastywordsArt.com ❤️
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oh wow I love your goodies! I’m going to order something (I have to do it on a different iPad lol) but I think you have great ideas and products. I’m looking forward to more pictures of the ring dishes:)
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That last paragraph, so me lately, especially “With every word I choose not to speak or write I’m sinking further into my weariness.”
When any sort of fun or enjoyment above surviving seems too hard – I remind myself it’s okay to miss out on life and just be quiet.
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I think it’s more than okay as a part of balance. Sometimes what we see as missing out is us showing up for ourselves.
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