I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity. ~ Gilda Radner
It has been a very long time since I have written anything of any heartfelt substance because I have been lost inside a cloud of discontent and worry. I am leaving my blog for awhile in search of direction. I want to thank the Sisterwives and The Reverie Journal for their love and acceptance. Thanks also to Helena Hann-Basquiat, Twindaddy, Sage Doyle, and The Ojanpera’s (and now that I am thinking about it the list is so long). I am stronger because of all of you.
We never know if something is right or wrong but I feel like the only way to find out is to focus,make a decision, and give it everything you have. I did that with this blog and I am pleased at what I accomplished. I have made a new and very important decision and it will take all the strength I have to accomplish my goals. You will see me pop up now and then here, and on other blogs so I hope you stick around but if not, please know that each one of you have a solid place in my heart and I thank you and appreciate you.
I am scared about my future but I will leave you all with a thought that I have been holding onto:
I believe there is a man at the top of a very high mountain (God) who can see clearly each path ahead of me. I haven’t been very good at trusting his viewpoint and have instead, for far too long, been making may own way through a valley full of trees I can’t see beyond. I must finally acquiesce and ask him to help me find the right path.
I know many of you hate religion and/or don’t believe in a higher power but for me, it is the only comfort I am finding. The soul deep trust that God is real and he will give me the strength I need to survive. So if you do believe and you believe in the power of prayer… Please pray for me…
I hope everyone has a beautiful Christmas and hopefully I will see you in the new year. Thank you for your support. Feel free to email anytime firstname.lastname@example.org