31 DAYS OF HORROR
(Link your scary stuff in the comments)
I FEAR
My own mind
Being totally irrelevant
Depression may not scare you but it scares me
I worry there will be more of it someday than of me
It tells me, quite convincingly, everyone would be better off
Better off without me… and my love doesn’t matter
If my body wasn’t so automatic in function I wouldn’t even will myself to breathe
My heart literally wants to stop beating but it continues regardless of my will
As I am writing this an elderly lady just visited and brought peach pie
The act of kindness wasn’t even for me
But the beauty of the gesture reduced me to tears
I am embarrassed but grateful I can still feel
And then I think of my daughter
I hate depression
For trying
To kill
ME
HASTYWORDS 
ifinn there would be only one wish i could have…. It would be to release from depression, so that you could enjoy life everlast….
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Hate it with all your soul and with the very deepest depths of your anger. See it as your adversary rather than as part of you, and keep fighting.
Courage, dear heart
❤
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Linking up: http://welltemperedbards.wordpress.com/2014/10/08/i-dont-fear-you/
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Maybe depression fears you… because you bring light to so many others…
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That was beautiful
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and true…
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*sniff*
you made me teary
in a good way…thank you
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no problem…
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I can so relate to this. This is my biggest fear. I think I have a post I can link to this.
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Oh yes please do. Yea this was stream of consciousness….sometimes I really do fear where my mind will go next.
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I found one that Johnny wrote awhile back and linked it up too. I think it’s a good exercise to see them all together and be able to relate to each other. Especially, with the horrors of life. I mean, none of us would wish these things on another person, but if we already have no choice, it’s good to know we aren’t alone.
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I completely agree!
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Here you go Hasty. Our mutual friend Lisa suggested I link this up here. I am glad she did because I had forgotten you were doing Halloween up proper all month. Hope all is well my friend.
http://jmc813.wordpress.com/2014/10/07/styx-forever-together/
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I ended up creating a Dr. Who fan fiction crossover mess using this prompt and a few others. If you think it might be fun to read such a fan fiction Frankenstein monster, please feel free.
http://hickswyliedna.blogspot.com/2014/10/the-importance-of-tyxana.html
I really resonate with your poem. I have suffered from sometimes very debilitating depression during my life. I’m sorry anyone else has to feel the way I so often do, but I’m always glad to find writing by other people who have the temerity to tell it like it is and not try to sugar-coat it. Every member of the blogging team I’m part of has some form of mental illness. Sometimes creativity is the only thing that gets us through.
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I’m so glad you linked up. What blogging team are you part of?
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Reblogged this on LUWAGGA ALLAN and commented:
Loving the fear
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That such a sweet soul should suffer this way….it breaks my heart. You are a warrior, Hasty. Remember that.
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