I met this boy very, very briefly one night. It was a chance encounter because I was accompanying a friend to see a play another friend was in and ended up meeting this boy who, as you will read, became one of my favorite friends. I remember shaking the boy’s hand, saying “Hi, nice to meet…
Today I look like I do any other day from an outsider’s perspective. However, today I have put myself in time out. I am not allowed to have any important conversations about feelings. I am not allowed to think destructive or self-deprecating thoughts. I am not allowed to sit and sulk. Today I will sit…
Sometimes I wonder if he could utter the words that could save his life. I have never seen someone so full of pain and sadness and it kills any words I might utter in return. Depression is a thief stealing perfectly good moments and locking them in the dark. There must have been dreams and…
My brain has a bad habit of withholding information from my heart. It has developed a severe superiority complex and doesn’t like to ask for help. My heart and mind are supposed to be a team, work together, solve problems, to create a more stable me. I have known they haven’t been getting along for…
Woke up looking for myself AGAIN. I could feel reality playing hide-n-seek in my mind AGAIN. Desperately trying to find any evidence I had been there, a trail, breadcrumbs, anything AGAIN. A clue that might help me find my confidence before the insecurities, in this absence of reality, come out and play and run rampant AGAIN. I jump in the shower because…
I am starting to believe happiness is an art. It looks different on everybody. Some people you have to really study and sit with a bit to see the happiness. Other people are like glitter painted rainbows and sunshine. Still others are very abstract, moody even, but the happiness is in there somewhere among all…
FORGET the fact that although I planned to run this morning my sleepy eyes had other ideas. FORGET the fact that I couldn’t find anything to wear to work because sleeping in is ruining my running efforts. FORGET the fact that I couldn’t find my makeup to hide the stress bumps on my face (yea…
I made dinner last night for family night and we enjoyed a super healthy marinated baked salmon and a spinach salad. My daughter, as usual, complained about the salad, but diligently ate it first to get it over with. Afterwards, my daughter got out her Oragami making kit. She made me a cup and a…
I have been trying to write this blog the last few days but I kept getting distracted. I am convinced I am attracted to all forms of distraction. I have a to do list that keeps getting longer, and goals that inevitably keep getting pushed further and further into the future. In talking to my…
When I was young I cracked my crystal ball Broke a few mirrors, and set fire to my fortunes told Or I would have known to avoid you Since then I have tossed a few pennies down the stairwell Scared I would never be scared enough To avoid finding someone like you Cascading thoughts…
