I have blogged about my emotions a lot. I have also blogged about the people in my life who mean the most to me and observations I make about them. However, I feel I should blog about something personal, something that changed the course of my life. This will be a long blog post but…
Sometimes just writing, even if it makes no sense, is healing. I wrote this as a series of texts to my best friend about a year ago. I was sad, confused, and had nothing to say but he encouraged me to just text even nonsense if it helped me feel connected. I texted this to…
I was watching a movie today where a woman fell into a frozen pond and was fighting for her life to resurface. It was stressful to watch and hit a nerve somehow; I was anxious and felt overwhelmed for a moment. Once the movie was over I sat thinking about how this movie, the particular…
I am having nightmares….they are relentless and terrifying. Is it possible for dreams to destroy the living??? I am worried there is a war that has been waged for my sanity. The dreams themselves I can endure but it is the realizations I come to about myself because of the dreams that worry me. For…
Sitting in the American Airlines Center waiting for Rammstein to perform. It isn’t really my type of music but I bought my husband tickets for his birthday. Getting dressed I had no idea what to wear. Do the fans wear Gothic Corsets? Do they wear tshirts with holey jeans? Are they all going to be…
“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again.” by Sylvia Plath This quote keeps running through my head. It was on my mind as I shut my eyes to sleep and on my mind again as I awoke this morning. When I shut my eyes…
I tossed and turned all night last night thinking of this and that. I slept off and on dreaming about this and that. I woke up thinking I needed a nap from all the exhausting this and that. I will apologize now if this is a rambling post, there are bound to be a few…
I went to a funeral today. It has been years since I set foot in a cemetery. There is something about so much earth dotted by man-made stones that unsettles me. Don’t get me wrong, I know they serve a purpose, a place more for the living than for the dead. A place where pain and…
A few weeks ago, I was standing in line to buy my lunch when an elderly lady suggested, “You could be very pretty if you tried!” Wait, what?? Granted, I decided to wear a sweater that was a bit over-sized, I opted to wear my glasses over my contacts, and my choice to wear very…
Several years ago the most amazing person caught my eye. I remember the first time I ever saw him, dressed in black and ready to dance. Being a person who struggled with my weight my whole adult life and finally garnering the courage to flaunt my pounds in a public gym, I was immediately drawn…
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