I am pretty stubborn and I am really good at making everything about me. I have been told I borrow emotion from people, but really I think it means I am a thief. “Oh…no…here comes that girl Hastywords…watch out she will steal your emotions!” Now that I know I have this super power I am going to have to start picking my victims better.
My first victim will be xxxooo. He is my new life coach. Well I never had an old one but now I have a new/old life coach. I really hate that he is going to read this because the world already has trouble containing his already sizeable ego. I read his blog and steal emotion from it every day because it feels good to laugh. He inspires me to care less about those who point out my flaws and encourages me to seek flaws in others. Actually, he inspires me to care more about myself and less about what others think about who I am. He is the funniest, most sarcastic, I don’t give a shit person I have ever met. Oh wait….I have never met him. I have never even seen a picture of him. **Alarm bells going off in my head**
My next victim would be a woman I will call Kat! She is greek and knock’ em dead gorgeous. She is a powerhouse if you ask me. If she wants something she asks for it. Someone doesn’t like her she moves on. She is super talented as well as being gorgeous. She is beautiful enough to be a supermodel but she loves to be behind the camera and she is probably the best I have ever seen. “I can’t do it!” is not something she accepts in herself or those around her. She also has a Prada purse I really would like to have.
The two people mentioned above kick butt. I think they would survive on a desert island better than most of us. I can see xxxooo spending his days listening to music and sending out messages in a bottle. I can see Kat on the beach nude doing yoga like Madonna did in that one movie…I forget the name but I remember the nude Madonna. I don’t think of them as cold hearted, actually quite the opposite they are both very warm hearted, but they have a very high emotional intelligence.
I can think of a few things that have changed over the last few years that have made emotional robbery easier for me. A person doesn’t have to be present for me to draw emotion from them. I have two friends C and R who used to send me the funniest random videos and they always seemed to come at the most perfect time. Life got busy for them so I don’t get them anymore but when I do I cherish them and how they make me feel. A “like” on Instagram, a re-tweet on Twitter, or a “kissy” face text feed my emotional state. The problem with all of this is I don’t have time for my own emotions anymore. I have forgotten how to feel when I don’t have emotion being fed to me. When I don’t get the “likes” or the “re-tweets” I go on the hunt for emotion like a starving vulture. Now when I do have time to myself I have no idea how to just sit with my own thoughts. I suppose I have always had this problem because before social media it was books….I read obsessively. I let the books devour me and from them I gained a borrowed emotion.
I do not want to give up victimizing my poor friends and sucking emotions from them because I love getting smiley face texts from them… but I do want to be more intelligent about how and who I gobble up. When I am sitting alone with my thoughts I will learn to harvest my own emotions. Eventually I hope to give my superpower to someone more deserving than I. I hope to be xxxooo someday…..feeding the emotional hungry around me!