I feel like my life has become a series of pictures. Instead of memories I have albums. My personality no longer matters… I am now judged on lighting, angle, contrast. If my pictures are interesting I must be interesting. Most of my blog pictures come from Instagram. You can tell so much about a person…
Have you ever been in the middle of an extremely stressful situation and just started laughing? It has happened several times for me this week. It is funny to me how a person can go from one extreme emotion to the next and when it ends in laughter can feel so peacefully calm after. What…
It is a beautiful new day. The birds woke me up at 6:30 but I didn’t mind because I actually slept really well. I woke my daughter up and I roller-bladed as she rode her bike. It was a beautiful morning and I realized how much I miss doing things with her. I am taking…
People who know me or know OF me are always surprised when I tell them I am very socially awkward. Being social takes a whole lot of bravery and constant mental pep talks. For a very long time I was content just working, being a wife, going to school and then one day it included…
Sometimes just writing, even if it makes no sense, is healing. I wrote this as a series of texts to my best friend about a year ago. I was sad, confused, and had nothing to say but he encouraged me to just text even nonsense if it helped me feel connected. I texted this to…
I have had time to reflect on my lastest posts and the comments they inspired. Even though my previous posts were born out of lonely thoughts they ended up sparking conversations in my head that didn’t feel nearly as lonely. I am thankful at this moment for those who took the time to comment. If…
I am having nightmares….they are relentless and terrifying. Is it possible for dreams to destroy the living??? I am worried there is a war that has been waged for my sanity. The dreams themselves I can endure but it is the realizations I come to about myself because of the dreams that worry me. For…
Sitting in the American Airlines Center waiting for Rammstein to perform. It isn’t really my type of music but I bought my husband tickets for his birthday. Getting dressed I had no idea what to wear. Do the fans wear Gothic Corsets? Do they wear tshirts with holey jeans? Are they all going to be…
I tossed and turned all night last night thinking of this and that. I slept off and on dreaming about this and that. I woke up thinking I needed a nap from all the exhausting this and that. I will apologize now if this is a rambling post, there are bound to be a few…
A few weeks ago, I was standing in line to buy my lunch when an elderly lady suggested, “You could be very pretty if you tried!” Wait, what?? Granted, I decided to wear a sweater that was a bit over-sized, I opted to wear my glasses over my contacts, and my choice to wear very…
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