I have had time to reflect on my lastest posts and the comments they inspired. Even though my previous posts were born out of lonely thoughts they ended up sparking conversations in my head that didn’t feel nearly as lonely. I am thankful at this moment for those who took the time to comment. If…
I am having nightmares….they are relentless and terrifying. Is it possible for dreams to destroy the living??? I am worried there is a war that has been waged for my sanity. The dreams themselves I can endure but it is the realizations I come to about myself because of the dreams that worry me. For…
“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again.” by Sylvia Plath This quote keeps running through my head. It was on my mind as I shut my eyes to sleep and on my mind again as I awoke this morning. When I shut my eyes…
I tossed and turned all night last night thinking of this and that. I slept off and on dreaming about this and that. I woke up thinking I needed a nap from all the exhausting this and that. I will apologize now if this is a rambling post, there are bound to be a few…
I went to a funeral today. It has been years since I set foot in a cemetery. There is something about so much earth dotted by man-made stones that unsettles me. Don’t get me wrong, I know they serve a purpose, a place more for the living than for the dead. A place where pain and…
I wasn’t easy to raise. I was oblivious, absent minded, dangerously curious, and constantly getting into things. I hear the stories everytime the family gathers and wonder, “who the heck are they talking about?” My brother likens me to the female Dennis the Menace. I often think my mom must really be Beverly Cleary because the Romona…
This is teacher appreciation week and even though I no longer have to sit in a classroom and adhere to all the class rules, I still think about those days and reflect on all the learning I did. All my teachers taught me some pretty important things and none of them were found in the…
Many years ago I embarked on an excursion. I didn’t understand it at the time because I was much too young to remember it but that is where it starts for everyone. We are born into a journey. Many of us start out with someone showing us how to navigate the road set before us,…
I met this boy very, very briefly one night. It was a chance encounter because I was accompanying a friend to see a play another friend was in and ended up meeting this boy who, as you will read, became one of my favorite friends. I remember shaking the boy’s hand, saying “Hi, nice to meet…
Today I look like I do any other day from an outsider’s perspective. However, today I have put myself in time out. I am not allowed to have any important conversations about feelings. I am not allowed to think destructive or self-deprecating thoughts. I am not allowed to sit and sulk. Today I will sit…
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