The spirits walk through walls They hover over our anxiety And they wrap our limbs Into the most complicated knots The emotions swell and spiral As the silence begins to breathe And the chairs… they squeak And the beds… they rustle And the bedsheets… they tangle And our fists bang on walls And our guts…
There are people everyday with a variety of mental disorders doing very courageous things by any standard. Focus on your abilities. Strengthen them. Starve the nasty voices in your head that say you aren’t good enough and feed the voices that are cheering you on. We all have that critical voice that seems to be…
#OctoWriMo2018 Day 2 One thing I’ve learned about MY depression is that being sober and staying away from alcohol is a MUST. Alcohol is a depressant. You may feel ok for a short (very short while) but it is short lived and then you are worse off than you were. The best thing I ever…
#OctPoWriMo2018 I am dedicating October to the reason I started my blog. Depression. It’s the scariest thing I have ever had to deal with. It is still the scariest thing I have to deal with. Depression is a constant. It will never go away. It snuck up on me. I was always anxious but depression……
My jaw clenches My fingernails Yearn to scratch At layers of skin My joints ache Rigidity laced Stand like a statue Hold still, hold still Breathe in slow Hold… maybe Forever if you can Fix your stare On a calmer future Moments past this Tick tick tick Final loud tock Exhale Open your eyes Look…
I’ve been thinking a bunch about the last decade of my life. Much of it was captured right here on this blog. I’ve been absent lately. Life just had a way of demanding my attention. Holding me accountable. Changing me. Healing me. And as I look at the things I’ve written… I barely recognize this…
When I experienced bad bouts of anxiety and depression I would isolate. I still do. Avoid socializing. Avoid commitment. Avoid stimulation. I would escape into my own head and look for comfort there. But I would never find it. When someone with depression reaches out to talk and they are scolded or told to just…
It’s been awhile since I’ve had the time to blog. You get divorced, become a single parent, and the whole world changes. BUT I feel I finally have things pulled together enough to come back. I miss you! I started a YOUTUBE channel where I basically just read my poetry. So much harder than…
You find yourself free of a toxic relationship. But how free? Don’t let the memories keep you tangled in the past. Find a way to unravel them and use them to propel yourself into a future free of cobwebs. Trying like mad to untangle The last torturous threads Of our fucked up history Knotted webs…
They lie static without Tethered to wanting Refraining from light The length grows wide And steps grow dark As they run into eyes That can’t see anymore As they slump under And fall into holes That were never dug Just born from life Having been betrayed Where revenge lurks And storms grow Into electrical impulses
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