I don’t believe in new beginnings. We can strive to put the past behind us and move forward one step at a time. We can try to put distance between those moments of trauma and try to live again but… pain doesn’t die. Have you ever been told that you need to just get over…
Fading pictures Filled with ghosts Cracks Over faces Folding shadows Erasing time I can’t remember The hunger How it felt Or the pain How it hurt The faces smiling With eyes Full Of broken glass Shanks Sharpened And waiting For my future self To reminisce Before going in For the kill
Weakness crashes like fog All around me, following Outlines that look too much Like pains I took time to hide Sadness from yesterday Bleeding into the rainbows I made the effort to paint on walls That will just be covered Like graffiti on another day Slumbering inside myself Holding words too heavy To carry to…
Kicked at the corners of eyes Blind spots creating madness Their names cross hearts Like razors cutting the throats Of hand holding paper dolls Spending time spinning wild Cradling tendencies focused On the abscesses in their minds They holds the answers, hon If you like all your answers spun They’ll weave sorrowful stories Drawing an…
He lied to her More than once Over and over again One lie…two lie…three lie All of it a series of useless lies Then there was another man, smart He was most clever and seemed genuine But seemed is another word for an illusion right And then there are those caught up in…
I sit listening to my tears Like rainfall adding to a flood I sit visiting them Wading through them Listening to each one of them Stories of heartache and truth Some brought to life by despair Some cry of loneliness Betrayal, bitterness, and anger Still others jealousy Love found then lost They gather unashamed In pools of wistfulness Each…
Brain in a straightjacket Muzzled and bound Static filled silence Absorbing the sound Re-uptake inhibitors Selecting serotonin Gagging the ruminating Inessential problem solving Doubting, worrying, obsessing Disarming a warning system Installed imperfectly Disengaging from warfare And any poisonous thoughts Used and appropriated By an amygdala born turncoat My brain locked In its own psych ward…
The dark keeps finding me The harder I try to run away The darker it gets; intensely The darkness surrounds me No hands can be seen, reaching No shoulders to hug, embracing Voices get lost, aimless echoes And silence sits across from me I can feel it killing me, tonight Suffocating me inside its deep…
This one is for my friend Sarah Fader I can see it you know Black beginning to yawn At the edges of your smile The gloom that curls up Inside your distant eyes The universe ticking by Like a doomsday clock I recognize it you know The darkness that crawls Into your mood at night…
Lindsay sent me a verse over a week ago out of the blue and this happened. NOT YOURS by Lindsay and Hastywords Target Is who I am not For your torment and abuse Slander and Lies Have sucked me dry Every mirror reflects black Since I let you into my head Darkened by your moods…
HASTYWORDS 