#BeReal – CAROL ESTRELLA

Please welcome my #BeReal guest today, Carol Estrella. The Biggest Hypocrite Life was never “normal” as I was growing up. I was the child of an alcoholic and a non-reachable mother. I was the caretaker, the protector, the salvation of the house. The one that hid my mother from my dad in my room, when…

#BeReal – DAVE CENKER

Please welcome my #BeReal guest today, Dave Cenker.     It started with a simple message. Would you consider writing for me? Just six words. I never expected such a simple request to unravel me on the inside. Truth be told, it was those last two words that really hit an emotional chord for me,…

#BeReal – JULIE ANDERSON

I am truly honored to have Julie Anderson as my #BeReal guest today.    FEARLESSLY VULNERABLE “To live exuberantly–to fully know and be fully known by another—we must be prepared to illuminate the dark spots in our most intimate relationships and in our selves.” –Arianna Huffington, On Becoming Fearless   When I was a little…

BEAUTIFULLY CONNECTED

It is International Women’s Day so I wanted to celebrate my favorite girl in the whole world.  I use my voice for her sake.  I love you my beautiful daughter. A video of us 🙂 The moment I saw you Your eyes swallowed my reality Held completely captive Seeing into the deepest part of me Your…

#BeReal – Rose B Fischer

The #BeReal guest today is Rose B Fischer.  Thank you Rose!     My father kicked me. Not often but often enough that my heart still hammers if I hear a man’s footsteps close behind me in the hallway. My mother called me disgusting and berated me because my father “couldn’t stand me.” She accused…

SENTENCED

Voodoo cursed And jury tried Condemned For her humanity Her lips sewn With wooden vines Cross stitched Haphazardly through Previous scars And healing scabs Keep those emotions Those hard feelings To yourself they said As they sentenced them Forever imprisoned Inside a fleshy tomb To rot and decay Inside her fucked up brain

#BeReal – KERRY KIJEWSKI

Please welcome Kerry Kijewski as she gets real about love.   Sometimes I think love, pain, shame, and embarrassment are so entwined, I can’t untangle them from one another. The strands of emotion and feeling are separable, if I really look at my past, in reflection, but in the moment I seem to make every…

ALWAYS WITH ME

I talked to you yesterday Even though you’re not here I talked to you again today And I will tomorrow too You always had this way Of just… Listening With your eyes With your smile With your heart You had this quiet way And I hope you don’t mind But I am going to keep…

#BeReal – AMANDA EIFERT

Please welcome my #BeReal Relationships guest today, Amanda Eifert.   It was along time before I had my first ‘real’ relationship. I went on Plenty Of a Fish, a dating site, because my friend had met her husband there. My now ex-boyfriend, was not like the other men I talked to on the site. He…

#BeReal – CRAIG SPENCE

Please welcome my #BeReal Relationships guest today, Craig Spence.   Reality is changing. Folks, I have a confession to make: For the last little while, meaning since about this time last year, I’ve neglected to mention a tiny piece of information. Not so much an out-and-out lie, more one of omission, but a lie still…