PATIENCE AND THE TROLL

Today I look like I do any other day from an outsider’s perspective.  However, today I have put myself in time out.  I am not allowed to have any important conversations about feelings.  I am not allowed to think destructive or self-deprecating thoughts.  I am not allowed to sit and sulk.  Today I will sit…

AGAIN….AGAIN…AGAIN

Woke up looking for myself AGAIN.  I could feel reality playing hide-n-seek in my mind AGAIN. Desperately trying to find any evidence I had been there, a trail, breadcrumbs, anything AGAIN.  A clue that might help me find my confidence before the insecurities, in this absence of reality,  come out and play and run rampant AGAIN. I jump in the shower because…

ATTRACTED TO DISTRACTION

I have been trying to write this blog the last few days but I kept getting distracted.  I am convinced I am attracted to all forms of distraction.  I have a to do list that keeps getting longer, and goals that inevitably keep getting pushed further and further into the future.  In talking to my…