I worry despite my best efforts NOT to worry. When I am very tired my mind will create trauma’s where none have occurred. This is a true story UNTIL I realized I had fallen asleep… and then I woke up in a panic and my mind raced through several fictions before I was able to confirm reality. This story is a fictional fear. We can not predict or change the future with our worry.
“Please don’t go to work today. The streets are bad and your car sucks on ice.”I had already asked my husband to go in late when we went to bed the night before but here he was waking me up to say goodbye.
“I have to go I don’t have a choice.”
“Yes you do, you always have a choice and braving the icy roads isn’t worth your life.”
“I’ll be fine.”
“Then take my car it does better and I will call my boss to come get me.”
“Yes, but leave your keys in case he can’t.”
“No… I’ll just take my car”
“Please drive safe and text me when you get to work or I will worry.”
“Ok. I love you have a good day.”
I stayed awake watching my phone for the next 30 minutes waiting for his text but I must have fallen asleep because it was an hour and a half later when I looked at my phone next.
He should have been at work over an hour ago even with these nasty roads.
I text him, -ARE YOU THERE?
I get up and start getting ready for work thinking he will call me and everything will be fine.
I get out of the shower and still no response.
My phone rings and his name flashes on the screen.
I answer, “I hate it when you make me worry.”
“Ma’am” it isn’t my husband’s voice on the phone.
“ yes “ I whisper
“It seems that Mr. Hasty was in the middle of texting you when we found him.”
“Found him where?” I just knew he was texting and driving and they found him in a ditch somewhere.
“He was at his desk ma’am”
“I don’t understand”
“He was texting you –I’M SAFE but he had a heart attack before he could hit send.”
Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight. ~ Benjamin Franklin