I originally wrote this over a year ago but it never stops being true. It may be the one thing I have written that has remained so constant.
Surviving depression is a journey. You never quite feel like you are in complete control of who you are or where you are headed. I used to be a backseat driver as depression bullied its way into the driver seat. Now I am learning how to make sure I am driving. I may not be able to kick depression out of the vehicle completely but I can at least try to keep it in the trunk.
She spent years
Climbing over
Rocks and weeds
Dirt and mud
Up into thinner air
Looking for sun
It was up there
Somewhere
§
The mountain
Was steep
But her muscles
Kept her steady
She had strength
That was her gift
A survivor
She would succeed
§
As the battle
Was fought
Raging below
She focused
Her sight
Beyond
The dark clouds
That blinded her
§
She helped
Other souls
Lost along the way
Encouraged them
Spoke to them
Held them
Showing them
Resting places
§
As she aged
She often worried
If she would ever
See this mysterious sun
But one more pull
One more push
One more step
Almost there
§
She began to feel warmth
Flood her entire being
As if a fireplace danced
Blazing lazily in place
Then she saw beauty
Colors she’d never seen
Sounds never heard
Evidence she had sought
§
She fell to the ground
In a luscious meadow
Covering the mountain
She relaxed listening
Feeling, breathing
And for the first time
She fell asleep knowing
She was finally home
HASTYWORDS 
Really beautiful…thanks for sharing.
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Hasty, this is wonderfully written.
I share with you in this. It sucks, but it makes me more aware of mood shifts and triggers. Also, the importance (right now) of my meds…taking complete care of oneself. Health matters. Especially mental health.
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Reblogged this on Bastet and Sekhmet and commented:
Something to ponder…really very beautiful.
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Thanks for sharing this beautiful piece with us. Lovely post and very insightful into the trials of depression!
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I agree…thanks for commenting here.
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Yes!!!! Yes!!! Yes!!! Depression does hurt and with my meds I can handle just about everything without loosing my mind. Thanks for sharing such honesty!
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Beautifully written.
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Reblogged this on Legends of Windemere and commented:
Beautiful, insightful poem about depression.
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Beautiful post..depression is a hard road..many of us travel it without ever reaching home..but we keep trying!
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Sweet, I will!
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Loving it… You know what cures depression? Looking at the pictures of you as a Hobbit and a recruiting poster hottie!
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I cannot wait to be revengified!
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Soooo many ideas 🙂
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Bring it!
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This is beautiful, Hasty. I travel this road with you so whenever you want a companion to travel with you, all you have to do is say so. I’ll travel with you.
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You just want another kiss 🙂 I know you are and I really love our friendship! Thank you!
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You’re welcome! And of course…I would NEVER turn away a kiss.
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LOL our first kiss convo was about Eskimo kisses wasn’t it???
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Yup.
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Memories…. 😀
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Indeed.
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Great post. I know full well that when depression grabs a hold of you, it will always have it’s claws in. It’s how you deal with it. Which is never easy and you have to keep an eye as you know it’s going to come back at some point. You just have to be ready for it and smack it with a baseball bat 😉
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I packed the trunk with bats! 🙂
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Excellent 🙂 Hope they are spiked ones. Unfortunately mine appear to be foam ones. I’ll get the right ones at some point
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LOL.. feather bats….smother em to death
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Yeah that would be good but it flaps around
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I love this! ❤
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Inspiring words as always Hasty ❤
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Perfectly written!
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So beautifully said, such knowing words,thank you.
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You’re coming into the light!
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beautiful. and gives a very positive message to people gripped with depression.
there is always light at the end of the tunnel – we need to keep going without giving up.
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Every tomorrow holds the potential to surprise us 🙂
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You’re beautiful. Thank you for sharing this. 🙂
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By the way…”Anonymous” is Ann Boyer. Ha! 🙂
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“Overcoming depression is a journey. You never quite feel like you are in complete control of who you are or where you are headed.”
Indeed!
“I may not be able to kick depression out of the vehicle completely but I can at least try to keep it in the trunk.”
I hope you get it! I gave up fighting against it.
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Awesome and encouraging post! Don’t let depression (or any other things that readers may need to overcome) take over. Put yourself in the driver’s seat! Great message!
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Amazing!
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Just be glad that you do not have to deal with several self centered coworkers who are experts at emotional bullying along with your depression.
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Unfortunately I have no choice in raising those walls and making them permanent for as long as I work there and yes I’m considering giving up the benefits to look for another job.
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Thank-you but with the way employers continue to treat their employees in this day and age the best I can hope for is an environment where I’m left alone to perform my job.
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I hope you are home Hasty, blessings, MM 🍀
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Speechless 🙂 🙂
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What a beautiful poem! I’m glad about your homecoming.
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Welcome home hasty, i am truly glad you let me hitch a ride, this is living…
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I’ve been depressed many times. For me it’s like a fun house with hidden exits. It hits you when you least expect it and only the strong survive. Here’s to all the survivors. Thanks for the inspiration to keep moving.
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Wow. This is just beautiful!
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Reblogged this on thegirlhasnoname and commented:
This resonated with me, like I could have written it. I really like it! 🙂
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love this and love the strength you resonate.
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🙂
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great looking pic to accompany such fine words too. I shall follow your posts with interest as they are truly wonderful.
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Great post Hasty. Keep on keeping on, just like me. Depression is a terrible thing and so hard to kick and people or the medical community don’t get it. Sending love to you. I loved your words today, they spoke to me.
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So beautiful.
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Thanks, Hasty, for re-posting this. It is you. reblogging
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Beautiful journey
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Show me the roaming fields of mountains never lost, out above those dusky sunsets where horizons stretch for miles, while listening to the warmth of wonder as our Sun reflects its slightest of thoughts thoughts upon the newest of moons, inside a starlit night. A picture I see as I read this Autumn eve.
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