I miss the way your words calmed me
How we used to write so eloquently
Blinking cursors dancing together
Creating symphonic stanzas in verse
I can’t do that anymore… ever….
Not without you anyway… never…
Because important pieces are missing
And nobody could ever do the replacing
For a short while you braved my storm
But that was all a fairytale
A made up dream come true
I let your ohhhhh’s follow my ahhhh’s
And somehow I felt the wind
Inside each lettered breath you took
Making me and my soul more complete
As our words flowed from mind to pen
I understood “in love” to be a feeling
It was a full out endorphined bliss
That carried me on its surging waves
And I let you pretend it was for her
Although I felt it was more for me
I wanted to contain the feeling
To make it last forever, like a book
Inside chapters meant for reading
Inside stories created for re-creating
Inside memories written to be relived
I was so crazy to feel it was real
To believe there was a another world
One where we could be free to be
But I learned worlds are connected
Every single one of them related
And a small insignificant ripple in one
Would be enough to destroy another
I am no destroyer, you are no destroyer
And although I failed inside my weakness
You were strong enough for both of us
With a steady retreating moral army
Under your willingly able control
I watch as you leave me, full withdrawal
Leaving me wounded with all my feels
Letting others stitch the emotional wounds
As you step fully back into your world
A place I never belonged
A place I will never belong
A place I never wanted to take you from
I just wanted to borrow a piece of you….
I was selfish
I am sorry
HASTYWORDS 
Good to see you back in flow – at least I think it’s a good thing?
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Maybe more of a trickle 🙂
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I’d say that’s a flood. Good to see you back doing what you do so well.
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Very powerful poetry. I could really feel those words.
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Welcome home. You have been missed. Hugs….
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Beautiful welcome 🙂
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Reblogged this on Sexual Reminisces and commented:
I had to re-share this poem, it really touched my heart.
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The beauty of the holidays find you in case your loved ones. This holiday bring you good health, happiness and fulfillment of all desires. Ileana Love
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This feels so familiar… heart guttingly familiar. I’ve missed your words, girly. But sorrow…. maybe not. ❤
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Love you.
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*barest hint of lip curled and hackles raised*
Good poetry.
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I can really relate to this ((((hugs))))
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Reblogged this on Little Anna B (Anna Bianca) and commented:
Oh beautifully written
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Beautiful and sad.. Hugs!
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I feel ya. Try to reach for whatever was good about it and save that away. Great writing.
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I love you. That is all.
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i feel a tormenting storm within! It’s just a written dream, not real life it seems? By and by Merry Christmas and a Brand New Year!
Too you and family….
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(HUGS) Sometimes, we need to borrow something from someone else to see that something in our selves already exists. It is a hugest loss when the borrowed something is taken back but ….
My Love I send to you.
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It is nice to see you back Hasty…
Merry Christmas 🙂
Andro xxx
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This poem is beautiful, Hasty, and so sad, too.
I was so crazy to feel it was real, too. But really, who needs sane, when crazy feels so fantastic sometimes?
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Does this mean you are back or what?
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Not yet ;). Merry Christmas Art!
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You too, buddy
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I have been married to the same women for forty four years. If she left me I would be devastated like your poem. Real and sincere.
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44 years is amazing. Congrats. I think that is beautifully wonderful.
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I know this got my hackles up before…but that was because of the leaving and upset of it all. It’s really well written but wrenching. And hearing you read it…wow.
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Wow this is incredible. I never usually write comments but the way you write…beautiful
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wow…
I am honored and thankful.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet and commented:
Come and Enjoy this powerful and moving piece!!!
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OMG!!! What an amazingly awesome piece/post!! So powerful, moving and full of emotion!! Loved it!! So much between the lines! Bellissimo, My Dear, Bellissimo!!!
😊💕🌹
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